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Apr 21, 2010
Time to bring out the uggs and snow jackets!
Sadly woke up this morning, and to snow? SERIOUSLY!? It's April, right? WTF happened to spring?
Jinx is the most odd cat I have ever owned. He loves to be out in the rain and snow! And if he's stuck inside, he just lays on the windowsill and meows...it's not a peaceful meow, it's more like a scream! Apr 13, 2010
Surprise Adventure
We ended up driving along a narrow highway that led us to thousands of beautiful trails in the mountains over-looking the sea. short but sweet
Bi-polar and I needed to get out of the cold mountains and hit the Desert for a night. We found a cheap but nice hotel in Palm Springs. She ended up on her phone most of the night talking or more like fighting with her boyfriend. After her last phone call for the night, her mood went from happy&fun to sad&depressed instantly! (Hince the name) So we went out for drinks to unwind. We decided to walk and find a close bar rather than drive...those two don't mix well for me at all! We ended up not drinking much...I should have driven. The walk home was filled with anoying honks and drive-by's, wanting to give us 'a lift home'. The bar scene was basically the same; led us to leave early in the night. This was not the diversion I was looking for! The desert is filled with more creeps than I had imagined.
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The next morning was more peaceful. Breakfast by the pool, catched a much needed tanning session and headed to the mall. FINALLY!!!
Apr 10, 2010
Daily horoscope?...This EARLY morning!
The compassionate Pisces Moon softens the boundaries between individuals, challenging us to separate our emotions from what we pick up on from our invironment. A magical Mercury-Neptune quintile turns the volume to a higher level on our fantasies, tempting us to transform them into reality. But meanwhile, an anxious quincunx between assertive Mars and ruthless Pluto makes it tough to know how force full we should be as we attempt to make our dreams come true. ...
You may have big ideas about what you want to do later this year, but there seems to be so many potential obstacles now that you are tempted to give up before you even start your journey. If you are considering an educational opportunity, delay making your final decision until your current negativity passes. There's no reason to force the issue right away.
!?!?...The first part of this astrological view makes complete sense...Last night turned out to be amazing and fun;experimental. The second is odd to me; I've always been taught to have a goal and achieve it. The world doesn't need any more procrastinators! Why should I be waiting; What am I waiting for. This flip flop of ideals is not what I need right now universe!
You may have big ideas about what you want to do later this year, but there seems to be so many potential obstacles now that you are tempted to give up before you even start your journey. If you are considering an educational opportunity, delay making your final decision until your current negativity passes. There's no reason to force the issue right away.
!?!?...The first part of this astrological view makes complete sense...Last night turned out to be amazing and fun;experimental. The second is odd to me; I've always been taught to have a goal and achieve it. The world doesn't need any more procrastinators! Why should I be waiting; What am I waiting for. This flip flop of ideals is not what I need right now universe!
Mar 31, 2010
A Few Weeks Ago...
My 'best friend' had invited me to join her and some friends to a concert in San Diego. Her husband has always been into spinning music and wanted to see what the new DJ's were spinning. OK. We walked in and the first sight was a HUGE amount of guys... she looked at me and said, "They're staring at you." I replied with, "no, at us sweetie.". She doesn't respond very well to excess attention when her husband is around. haha.? We danced and drank, not too much since we turned down 'Girls Gone Wild'. ! We got home about six in the morning and passed out with each other on the couch. I woke up@ noon to a text saying, '?'. I didn't realized I had been texting My Love 'till 5 in the morning!!! ...CRAZY FUN NIGHT!
Mar 24, 2010
No longer 'my drunken enemy'
After the last time I saw him he has grown, matured and changed his views on life and our relationship completely. We are rebuilding our friendship that was lost about a year ago with no strings attached and the best part is that I have never seen him so happy and free. We are living completely different lives but still find a way to catch up when time permits. ...
Reasoning to why he's still attached; it was staring me right in the face the whole time, but this article I ran across makes perfect sense and threw me out of the denial phase.
'According to Harville Hendrix, we are most magnetically attracted to people who embody the characteristics of our parents or early caretakers because we unwittingly seek in a partner someone who will re-injure our childhood wounds. Our adult selves can finally heal those wounds, but the more negative those characteristics are (from critical and controlling to charmingly irresponsible) the more intense the attraction we feel.
We can get relief from our nostalgia for a passionate love by remembering the intensity of the memory does not hold some great truth about the relationship’s sacredness. Remember, what fueled the attraction may not have been love, but your soul’s desire to heal the past.
Subliminally, people in love promise they will meet all of each other’s needs while having none of their own. (Like mommy did!) Listen to the language of lovers and you will hear the echoes of that infantile bliss: “Baby, Sweetie, Honey, Darling.” We long for the feeling of fullness again, of merged egos. Getting free means understanding that the completeness you felt with your past love echoed a memory from infancy. It was an illusion and temporary and in reality it was not love.
Had the relationship continued, you would have seen boundaries snap back in place with the inevitable reestablishment of reality. No one would have made you feel that high forever.
Brain scientists now recognize that nearly 20 percent of us suffer from “complicated grief.” According Rob Stein of the Washington Post, “One of the hallmarks of complicated grief is a persistent sense of longing for the lost one and a tendency to conjure up reveries of that person.”
The persistence of a romanticized memory contains an addictive element but the element is not in the former relationship, it’s in you. For the 20 percent of us that stuck-ness has a biological source, an actual difference in brain processing. It can help to know the connection you still feel may be more biological than spiritual in origin. So trade in your rose-colored glasses. Chances are you are romanticizing weaknesses as strengths. Was he self-employed because of his independence or his inability to accept authority? A realistic assessment is empowering. Keep a cheat sheet of unflattering truths and refer to it when you slip into dewy daydreams. It is easier to let go of a human than a hero.
Ask yourself whether deep down you believe that remembering the relationship preserves it in some way. Embrace the reality that longing does not connect you and write a new belief code, such as: “I have never left a relationship that would have made me happier than I am now.” “This is a person of great worth, but not to me.”
Each of us probably has 10,000 people we could feel a similar connection to---don’t mythologize as “one and only” someone who actually might have been unremarkable. '
Reasoning to why he's still attached; it was staring me right in the face the whole time, but this article I ran across makes perfect sense and threw me out of the denial phase.
'According to Harville Hendrix, we are most magnetically attracted to people who embody the characteristics of our parents or early caretakers because we unwittingly seek in a partner someone who will re-injure our childhood wounds. Our adult selves can finally heal those wounds, but the more negative those characteristics are (from critical and controlling to charmingly irresponsible) the more intense the attraction we feel.
We can get relief from our nostalgia for a passionate love by remembering the intensity of the memory does not hold some great truth about the relationship’s sacredness. Remember, what fueled the attraction may not have been love, but your soul’s desire to heal the past.
Subliminally, people in love promise they will meet all of each other’s needs while having none of their own. (Like mommy did!) Listen to the language of lovers and you will hear the echoes of that infantile bliss: “Baby, Sweetie, Honey, Darling.” We long for the feeling of fullness again, of merged egos. Getting free means understanding that the completeness you felt with your past love echoed a memory from infancy. It was an illusion and temporary and in reality it was not love.
Had the relationship continued, you would have seen boundaries snap back in place with the inevitable reestablishment of reality. No one would have made you feel that high forever.
Brain scientists now recognize that nearly 20 percent of us suffer from “complicated grief.” According Rob Stein of the Washington Post, “One of the hallmarks of complicated grief is a persistent sense of longing for the lost one and a tendency to conjure up reveries of that person.”
The persistence of a romanticized memory contains an addictive element but the element is not in the former relationship, it’s in you. For the 20 percent of us that stuck-ness has a biological source, an actual difference in brain processing. It can help to know the connection you still feel may be more biological than spiritual in origin. So trade in your rose-colored glasses. Chances are you are romanticizing weaknesses as strengths. Was he self-employed because of his independence or his inability to accept authority? A realistic assessment is empowering. Keep a cheat sheet of unflattering truths and refer to it when you slip into dewy daydreams. It is easier to let go of a human than a hero.
Ask yourself whether deep down you believe that remembering the relationship preserves it in some way. Embrace the reality that longing does not connect you and write a new belief code, such as: “I have never left a relationship that would have made me happier than I am now.” “This is a person of great worth, but not to me.”
Each of us probably has 10,000 people we could feel a similar connection to---don’t mythologize as “one and only” someone who actually might have been unremarkable. '
Mar 23, 2010
130 pictures and 5 hours of video footage that I can't show!
My Monday night ended up with work then drinks with some co-workers after. By our second drink, one of them suggested to hit up the casino. Morongo was their first pick, we jumped in the car and headed east. My 'boss' played one of his sociology tricks and got us all a free room and complementary champagne. After a few more drinks we went down to the casino. My brother's ex and I spent our time at the bar, sobering up with water while the guys played poker. They came back to share that they had just won...$2,500!!! After another bottle of water, we met them in the room. They had more champagne, wine and dinner ready for us by the time we got to our room. Mmmm. After dinner, we were invited to another room for shots! geh. By three in the morning, my brother's ex announced she wanted to take a bath...but not with out me!? OK. That's when the video camera came out and I pulled out my camera. The rest of the night was a complete blur! So this morning, while waking up to coffee and cigarettes, we pulled out our captured memories of the night. OMG!!! At one point one of my co-workers scanned the room and said, "So, where's the rooster and the tiger?" Then the other replied with, "I hope there's not a baby in the cabinet!" Ah!
Mar 22, 2010
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