I found him while shoveling snow off my drive way. I shall call him squishy...what do caterpillars eat?

Dental appointment this morning...I mean dental disappointment. I was told today I have to have my wisdom teeth removed ASAP, before they ruin the thousands of dollars my parents spent on braces!

Wine and food tasting at 3pm for our new menu...AGAIN. FUCK! I just had the old menu memorized!

Then I have the house to myself all weekend...Use your imagination!

There has always been something that drives me...knowing someone is watching or knowing that someone could walk through the door at any moment. Anyway, Kitchen sex is the best to it's fullest. It's the worst feeling to see him drive away; even if  you know you'll see the him later..FUCK WORK!!!...Mmmm. My legs are still shaking!

Horoscopes...?

...setting the stage for the next act of  a reoccurring drama that possibly began in November of 2008.

I never used to pay that much attention to my horoscope till a few weeks ago. And they have lived out to  be  terrifyingly true.

DONE!

Cut my wrist, I'll learn to die
I'll say a prayer and learn to fly
All I ask is to take me away from this place
Wrap my body in lavender lace
Send my ashes off to sea
     and let my body lay with thee
Even if it's my heartbeat that you'll seek
My spirit will always be
You'll find me in someone
    Even if it's in the rising sun
I'M DONE!
Just look hard enough and you will find 
    something that's greater than mine
We never leave, we are always here
Keep me in your dreams 
And I'll always be near
Even if you wish me away, I will lay there with you
When the sun falls upon your eyes...
Through that wonder of a window...I'll be gone
The absence of you is spoken in every love song
Sirens scream, as they reach my street
Those sirens will be for me...sooner than late 
My heart has been lost within fate
Every place. Every song.
     Every photograph haunts me...I can't go on
Life's left in ruins
Unless, to my heart, you'll find the key... 

Just let me rest in peace.

Jesus should move his birthday to the spring season. Then we could finally have a white Christmas. Come on, there are more than just Christians who celebrate that day. I even know some Jews, Muslims and Jehovah Witnesses who celebrate 'christmas'. ...God is everyone and everyone is God; no matter the form you percive him as.

He's been calling me a few days out of the week. Updating me on his broken arm. Almost every year he breaks something while snowboarding and I'm usually the one who takes care of him. Not this year! Well, I guess I am in some way; helping him through the pain, with words.

I don't remember Lub being there that night!

Hold it down, Chez Roll!

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Time to bring out the uggs and snow jackets!

Sadly woke up this morning, and to snow? SERIOUSLY!? It's April, right? WTF happened to spring?

                                  

Jinx is the most odd cat I have ever owned. He loves to be out in the rain and snow! And if he's stuck inside, he just lays on the windowsill and meows...it's not a peaceful meow, it's more like a scream!

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Please do not comment on my horizon lines, lol.

We made it down in time for sunset on the beach. But not in time to escape the jumping bugs. The last trail we were on was pretty overgrown in some parts. There were hundreds of tiny black bugs falling from the trees like raindrops, clinging on to us, towards the end.  Ewww, RUN!

Surprise Adventure

I received a text yesterday morning saying Let's go. Bathing suit and towels. About 1/4 mile down the road I just had to ask where we were going, I knew we were scouting out locations for shooting, but where? We ended up driving up and down the coast. I was ecstatic to be at the beach...Way over do, I could never leave Cali. The beach is too important to me and my health! There's a sense of freedom and relaxation that I find the second my feet touch the sand. Sadly, we didn't spend much time on the beaches. I didn't let that bother me though; it wasn't really preferable beach weather. 

We ended up driving along a narrow highway that led us to thousands of beautiful trails in the mountains over-looking  the sea. 

short but sweet

Bi-polar and I needed to get out of the cold mountains and hit the Desert for a night. We found a cheap but nice hotel in Palm Springs. She ended up on her phone most of the night talking or more like fighting with her boyfriend. After her last phone call for the night, her mood went from happy&fun to sad&depressed instantly! (Hince the name) So we went out for drinks to unwind. We decided to walk and find a close bar rather than drive...those two don't mix well for me at all! We ended up not drinking much...I should have driven. The walk home was filled with anoying honks and drive-by's, wanting to give us 'a lift home'. The bar scene was basically the same; led us to leave early in the night. This was not the diversion I was looking for! The desert is filled with more creeps than I had imagined. 

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The next morning was more peaceful. Breakfast by the pool, catched a much needed tanning session and headed to the mall. FINALLY!!!

Daily horoscope?...This EARLY morning!

The compassionate Pisces Moon softens the boundaries between individuals, challenging us to separate our emotions from what we pick up on from our invironment. A magical Mercury-Neptune quintile turns the volume to a higher level on our fantasies, tempting us to transform them into reality. But meanwhile, an anxious quincunx between assertive Mars and ruthless Pluto makes it tough to know how force full we should be as we attempt to make our dreams come true. ...

You may have big ideas about what you want to do later this year, but there seems to be so many potential obstacles now that you are tempted to give up before you even start your journey. If you are considering an educational opportunity, delay making your final decision until your current negativity passes. There's no reason to force the issue right away.

!?!?...The first part of this astrological view makes complete sense...Last night turned out to be amazing and fun;experimental. The second is odd to me; I've always been taught to have a goal and achieve it. The world doesn't need any more procrastinators! Why should I be waiting; What am I waiting for. This flip flop of ideals is not what I need right now universe!