My babies haven't bloomed in five years... Maybe they were waiting for sobriety, too.

                                                                                                                                                                         Alcohol is a disease of carried isolation. It engulfs you in a cloud of dark pins and needles. Until hidden disaster shows face, one stays in ignorant bliss.  
            The light eventually emerges, unexpectedly at the necessary  time. True colors show and your waken by realism. ~My new life has blossomed.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

I will not regret...I will not remorse...I will not retrace...I will not reconcile...I will not retreat...I will not regress...I will not rewind...

The past is non-existent  as is the future.

I will recover.

The One and only Valentine's Day Card...

Daughter,               
You'll always be my little girl,
that's never gonna change.
Well, I can't always tie your shoes-
    that might be kinda strange... 
And I can't hold your hand forever,
but it's hard to let it go.
And I can't fix all your mistakes
     because you'll learn from someone-
                      I know.
I have to let you spread your wings and reach for the sky.
And though I worry you might fall,
I love to watch you fly.
But just remember one thing, because it's always true-
No matter what the future holds, 
I'm always here for you. 


                                                       I Love You
                                              Happy Valentine's Day 

Love,
Dad

Mordancage

Last Sunday I played with a new developing process with Dan Dozer. It was more fun than other 'dark room' projects because he wasn't sure what he was doing; it was a new process for him, too. 

I didn't think we would be working on my prints, but that made me less fear full of messing any up... It was just me. 

More work next week. He's not sure what he wants to work on, but it will be work for his upcoming art gallery show. My first show! 
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Exciting!

How could I not have salt water in my veins?
They say the home is where the heart is and for most people that consists of four walls and a welcome mat. But for me... it's the ocean! The sand in between my toes and the warmth of the sun against my skin......................................

I can't wait for next season! 



Pic credits: Sven Ellirand

She danced for us...

Awesome shoot with Dan Dozer this morning. 
...cant wait to work in the dark room again!



Strange meeting with Nathan, (photographer),   after.
Coffee turned into a tour around parts of the desert that I have never seen before, and then a little shoot on a creepy street.

=  exhaustion. 
Red Bull saved my life when driving  home at 12Am.

                                                                               Finally!!! It's only been two years!

The burning of Justin Bieber....

This portrays the way I have felt for the past week !!!

...only a few more days.

Everyone was under the wings...

at some point. 

And under vodka.

yes, again!

...Doctor visit after work tomorrow; my co-worker freaked me out about loss of vision from the broken blood vessel.    

This is with make-up on!  ... I will not be on a photo shoot for a few weeks; unless I'm the one shooting.

Our first snow...

 I'm ready for summer!