"If He was human, the ego would have prevented His absolute attention given to others."  RB

'Money is only a commodity of exchange.."

" One day it's here: the next it's gone."

I need to get out of this town.

Nope...no one is ever there when i truly need them.

Researching for a private villa, with a yard, in the desert... Hot. I don't know what I'm doing now. LA seems to be the ideal dream for me: I've always wanted to live there, but now it's too far away to be alone. OK. I'm just being childish...I could make it alone if I wanted to; I could start stripping. LMFAO.

 

OK...So a little too much sun!? Now I have to find somewhere that I can tan nude. Fuck!

Finally ready for bed at a decent hour!

My day started with ignorance in Banning. I never thought using a credit card to pay for gas  would be so difficult for the cashier! She looked at my card as if it were a calculus quiz.  Then I went over to Starbucks for a delayed caffeine fix. The menu consisted of four different types of coffee drinks! Don't get me wrong, the more simple the coffee the better, but I did expect them to have the all fifty ridiculous styles of  'their spin' on Italian coffee. I wonder what happened to this chain. ?

Then, to kill time, I went to the hot springs for a much needed tanning session before the THREE HOUR Planned Parenting App. !?!? It was the most odd doctor's office I have ever been in. There was a glass guard between the receptionist and the patient and you had to speak to her through a two way phone that was hanging on the wall....Am I in jail!?

Then to the grocery store to get dinner for the family...Parent's 26th Anniversary. 

Cook.Clean.Bed!

Grandparents all week.  

Work.

Trying to schedule some shoots.

Exhausted...And to top it off, Mom's more stressed than I've seen her in years. The thought of my in-laws coming to visit makes her sick to her stomach. It seems that no matter what I do to help her, whether it be cleaning the entire house or making all the family get together arrangements and dinners, it just doesn't help her emotionally...After 25 yrs of marriage it seems like she'd just get used to them!?

The next day, in hell... I went with Lub to take his son to a little league baseball practice. The coach never showed but some of the other children did, so we played along. I was helping one of the toddlers practice his stance with the bat, and without a ball in sight he swung!?...Fuck, right into my knee! Lub made sure I had ice on it all afternoon and today I'm walking with a limp. That child has an amazing arm! 

They always seem to be fighting about something. Grow the fuck up, you're ruining my night! 

...
I want her ass, the one on the right.

As I waited for some drunks to sober up and leave my couch, this guy that I had met a couple of weeks ago who wasn't invited either, asked if I minded that he stayed. Why?... He told me he didn't feel right leaving me alone with drunk dudes passed out in my house while I was home alone. Awh. That's one of the sweetest things anyone has done for me in a long time. We stayed up till seven in the morning, just talking and laughing about work, life and relationships. Ends up he was on my Dad's Hot Shot crew a year ago...Something in common. I've always despised that type of guy. He was different.  


Still don't remember his name!!! lol

After a long night at work on Friday, I came home to a car blasting trance..."Where have you been?" I got changed out of my work clothes, in between shots of vodka, and went out to celebrate Chez's birthday. These girls will be the end of me someday!

After some local bar scene action, I invited them back to my house...I pulled up to six other cars parked around my house!...WTF? I LOVE this town! HAH.  

Where's my man to regulate when I need him!?!?

Happy Birthday, Chez Roll!