Awesome shoot with Dan Dozer this morning. 
...cant wait to work in the dark room again!



Strange meeting with Nathan, (photographer),   after.
Coffee turned into a tour around parts of the desert that I have never seen before, and then a little shoot on a creepy street.

=  exhaustion. 
Red Bull saved my life when driving  home at 12Am.

                                                                               Finally!!! It's only been two years!

The burning of Justin Bieber....

This portrays the way I have felt for the past week !!!

...only a few more days.

Everyone was under the wings...

at some point. 

And under vodka.

yes, again!

...Doctor visit after work tomorrow; my co-worker freaked me out about loss of vision from the broken blood vessel.    

This is with make-up on!  ... I will not be on a photo shoot for a few weeks; unless I'm the one shooting.

Our first snow...

 I'm ready for summer!

 A "just for fun" picture tuned into a $2500 bill a few days later. 
                                    At least it didn't break down while we were out in the middle of no where in the blazing heat. 

It ended up here:

                                                               Beautiful!

Don't ever buy a VW!

Two years ago the consumer reports were amazing; have you seen them now!?

My timing belt and water pump went out this last weekend. Two days and $680 later I get another phone call.

" You can pick up your car, but you cant drive it."

FUCK 

When the belt flew off it tore a valve that threw pistons towards damaging the two out of four cylinders.

I had to laugh.

"Why are you laughing?"

" I always thought I had five cylinders."

Mowgli was not very happy about it; I've never heard him whine like that before.

17 years ago

We rescued Solo from a shelter; and today we rescued him from his misery. 

At first his hips started to go out and then he received  a tumor on the side of his jaw; he was basically bleeding to death.

Leela made me a bracelet, she said it was going to be my new raver candy!... lol; that came from a ten year old! (So did this picture)

school! ;(

"Due to the on-going California budget crisis, College of the Desert will face a funding reduction of approximately $5.5 million for the 2011 - 2012 academic year. Utilizing accumulated reserves, COD has limited this reduction to $1.8 million; however this budget cut will result in a reduction of 300 - 350 course sections spread out between the upcoming Summer, Fall, and Spring terms. In an effort to address this reduction, COD will be implementing several changes to the Fall 2011 registration process.


In accordance with the passing of Senate Bill 70, course enrollment fees will increase from $26 per unit to $36 per unit, effective with the start of the Fall 2011 registration period. As budget discussions continue at the State level, the Legislature may elect to increase enrollment fees again if the state budget worsens.


The start of the Fall 2011 registration period will be moved from the month of May to the month of July. The Summer 2011 registration period will remain in the month of May. A detailed list of the Summer and Fall registration dates will be available on the COD website under the "Catalogs & Schedules" link.


The priority registration system for Summer 2011 will remain the same as before and will be based solely on the number of units completed at COD. However, the Fall 2011 priority registration system will include a review of a student's academic standing and long-term unit accumulation. Students who are not in good academic standing or who have exceeded 100 total units at College of the Desert will be allowed to register at the start of the Open Enrollment period provided that they have cleared all registration holds by seeing a COD Counselor prior to registering. The new priority registration system for Fall 2011 will be as follows:"~ COD

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Fuck off!

1) We do not need new buildings

2) We do not need new books

3) It is not the student’s fault that we must pay for this “’higher” learning accreditation; the fault is corporate America.



“higher learning” is redundant. I have taken every single class in College that I have taken in High School.

~~~~~~~~~What is going on here?

Never Cook Bacon Naked

My morning consisted of breakfast with my boys; it felt like two years ago all over again! I made them make the food and wash the dishes since I bought the food... as usual. 

Sean T.,"Want a beer Lub?"

Lub, "No, I'm still drunk from last night."

Sean T., "You know you're an alcoholic when Lub doesn't want to drink with you." 

I kind of miss those days.

There is a fine line between cuddling and holding someone down so thet can't get away.

I think I'm still working on that one. lol!

This is how I feel right now.

        I don't want to make the drive to work today! Please help me through this!

I always take life with a grain of salt. Plus a slice of lemon, and a shot of tequila.

My Snorkel has a beautiful Greek God body...you can look, but not touch!

Tables have turned!

 Now I've turned you into a model! Ha, take that!

Now, turn me into a photographer!

Fourth of July=Nude beach day!!!

Our fourth of july ended a lot sooner than we had planed. He was stung by a sting ray. At first he thought something bit him. I called a state park ranger and she said they are known for swimming close to the shore, southern and northern coastline, when the water is warmer.

Right after she said that I thought about our conversation; ,"Did the water just get a little warmer?"

"Yes, I felt that, too."

Bringing in the sting rays!

I found myself hanging, at one point.

I love our Mondays!!!

This is how I feel right now.

Tom; from solid pro

I have been working with him for almost a year now. He is a very zen photographer and great to collaborate with. 

With my schedule being so busy I'm not sure when I'll get a chance to work with him again! ...hopefully soon.

FUCK

I recently got a new job in the desert and it is literally killing me. I can't find time to eat and I can't find to to be with my loved ones. By the time I get home, which is spans from 11:00pm to 3:00am, nothing is accomplished accept for an unrewarded paycheck. My assignments are late and most importantly my loved one. He gets to go out and shoot with girls while I'm working my ass off.

~Jealous...yes. All I get to see of him is his beautiful sleeping face. Then It's a kiss goodbye.

....WAIT! It gets better...

Cold and Lonely

Tequila is a deadly game. 


I haven't had shots of tequila in almost a year. The saying: one shot two shots three shots floor, has never pertained to me. I'd always laugh at that saying-until last night! 

I crashed in my brother's spare bedroom and was in and out with texts and empty phone calls. 

I tried communicating. I'm not at fault for 'cell' phone reception. But I am sorry.

Everyone I call does not seem to care about what is going on in my life!!!! 

...they answer their phones and then it's all about what they are doing. I can't take it anymore; I need someone there for me, I want someone to hold me...I'm tired of holding others.

I know it's my fault; I have been conditioned to be the person they call upon for- anything. 

I know this sounds selfish; but I've never had it.

...still makes me wonder... IS everything perfect!

"...things that made her feel real, black and white prints of photos from an exhibit in Pittsburgh."

"...one shot of the railroad... a train passing by-still made her smile."

"...even if she saw it through the lens, they never showed up on the film. Yet, she enjoyed the process of taking the photos enough that she was glad she'd tried the experiment." 
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"Focus. Control."

I just recieved an awesome phone call!

My pics from two weeks ago are almost done! The negatives are all ready to be developed. All I can say is that I can't wait to work in the dark room again.  

This photographer is the only one I've modeled for that still works with film; and large format for that matter. I have only worked in a dark room twice so this should be fun! 

I can't wait till Sunday!!!

Solid Pro





I met with Tom from Solid Pro, and he is...

                                                                                                                                                                                                   

 A very professional photographer, that I have shot with  twice and in many different locations.

  He has a very unique quality; influenced by the beauty of Zen.  

I hope to work with him again!

On the bright side it's a perfectly sunny day. Finally we have met 80 degree weather!

Who wants to go nude tanning!? 

Excuse my negativity...

I'm not usually like this, but the past few days I've been in a hole.
I know I dug it; but I can't seem to get out.

Why can't I just have a normal relationship...

This PAST is driving me crazy~~!

My love (oh sorry, he's not a possession; just someone I see going home to every night)  is accomplishing a major goal in his life and I appreciate that. I've encouraged that...

I've tried to accept it...I'm trying to accept it...I need to learn to accept it.

But today i can't. I'M neglected for his past sex life. 



~J'taime

Is this really how marriage...feels!?












Try the ring on before you wear it.